1 Loser's Whining [Nissan&Eishi | NK | Invite Only] Sun Feb 25, 2018 5:44 am
Nissan
D-rank
Somewhere deep in the "Rockies", a hidden mist shinobi found themselves alone. It wasn't for a minute hand job or seeking piece. Nissan cried loudly like a wounded beast. The failed chuunin exam made him question his entire ninja career.
He was sitting behind a big oak tree, which casted a wide shadow. While holding and staring at his bandana, a storm of tears fell onto the metal plate. " Hey moron, the metal will catch rust if you don't stop watering it! " - said his alfa inner voice, while trying to meditate and fix his anger issues.
Now they have switched places after they successfully took the third exam. After the proctors and the Raikage found out about Niidashi’s kekkei genkai, they said “disqualified”!
Yes, the Raikage himself - Hastur Miyamoto – was there to help Nissan. He was a little taller, about the same weight and that’s about it with the similarities. The way he talks, the way he walks, his whole appearance was intimidating and honorable at the same time. His right hand, sitting in his shadow:
“Are you ready, kiddo?” - this old man was nice to the genins, but it looks like it was hard for him. So he have used the same phrases over and over. That time it did not quite worked. That was a grown ass kid, almost as old as the Kage.
“ Yes. “ – answered formally Nissan, but inside he was truly pissed off. This kind of humor was not onto his taste but he doubted that it was humor that Hastur have spoken.
There was a legend spoken by the locals: If you want to find a true balance you have to beat your locked hatred at the falls of truth. There was a story for Naruto Uzumaki the nine tailed jincuuriki and Killer Bee the eight tailed jinchuuriki which both have succeeded here and in a result they took control of their inner beasts. The final trial was not to do the exact same thing, because it was extremely difficult. Just a little demo version of it.
The falls were so cold that around them the temperature was at least two degrees lower. The cold drops were so refreshing, that cooled Nissan’s masculine body, which rested in a lotus pose. Just like the wise elders which meditate in order to find the peace with themselves and gather strength. The second part was more interesting to the bearded man. The possibility to get more powerful was driving him forward all the time.
“ Close you eyes now! “ – insisted the "right hand", while the Raikage himself was performing couple of signs. “A ninja, must come to terms with the truth within themselves “– said the Raikage for first time, then the silence conquered the area.
It was like going into another dimension really. Instead of excited, Nissan had felt scared from the change, so he tried to hide it with his blurry face. He was still filled with doubt. “ Will I become a chuunin after this? I am only one step away! Let’s just finish this exam for inner bullshit and I will be one step closer to greatness! “ - Nissan had thinking only for the results, not for the path that he is destined to walk. The last words he heard from the real world was: “Just find the ruby gemstone and break it! “ – they sounded like faraway echo even back then.
The inner fight appeared so clear to both Nissan, so while they both meditate behind the oak tree, they have experienced it once again. Nobody knew about this drama, because it was only in “Yin” and “Yang” minds.
I open my eyes and look up, while still maintaining the lotus pose. A dark silhouette appears behind the clear waterfall. A dark crimson glowing eyes followed by a pale white face with dense beard. A complete mirror image from the toes to the hair, a perfect creation by analogy of ME? The water is falling so realistically on the copy’s shoulders, the same cold drops as before. Witch the assistance of the wind the cold drops are touching his skin gently, showing me that every sense experience is natural. This is not an ordinary illusion technique, that’s why the locals were telling this stories again and again until it became a legend.
“ I was waiting for you, Yin! “ – said the fake’s voice which sounded a little bit softer than my voice. “ This is why you are made! To wait for me, to serve me!“ – I grinned and gained confidence in front of the recessive. Actually we both have heard each other’s voices before, but it is our first meeting face to face. “ It’s not about you don’t you get it? It won’t be as easy as before! You are on my territory now! “[/color]. – reasons “the fake”. He calls himself “Yang” and he always existed deep inside me. I want to use him, he does not deserve acknowledgement. He is not a real part of me!
***
“ It’s only a kekkei genkai! “ – I used to say, never accepting that “Yang” might be as rightful as me to make decisions and take control of things. Maybe we both deserve equally to be Niidashi? But how to share the control of your own life with someone, especially if he is an opposite.
***
“ If I win now I will gain full control of your power and I will become chuunin! “ – I said with passion. A flame in my eyes started burning, my strong-willed trait was sharp, everybody could see it without a psychology degree.
This was next level of motivation! Everything is lying on a card, all in. “ If I loose I loose myself! “ – I think in my mind, hoping the other bastard don’t have access to it now. I hate to show weakness in front of him.
We both are running towards one another. With the first step a blue glowing chakra appears on our feet, in order to keep us above the water surface. The super natural walking practice, a technique we mastered to perfection in the Academy.
I am making my first attempt for attack with a fast and furious low kick. "My shadow" is reading me as an open book so instead of doing the same he hardens his shin bone with an earth chakra and soaks my kick smoothly, we both take some damage in a result, but it's OK for me! “Burokku to rōkikku“ – is the answer of the soft one. After the block the next step is returning the kick to me. I am smiling, while perform the same block: “You damned copycat! I worked my ass for this technique!“ – obsessed with battle rage, I screamed at my reflection. Instead with anger, the “dark side” answers me calmly, but I can still sense the offense in his tone: “ You? Do you remember my visions of how to master the technique? I was with you all the time pushing whenever you were about to quit… and you just never acknowledge my effort!
One kick after another, I'm doing my best to take him down, but it looks meaningless!. I can feel the damage and the pain, but cannot stop right now! “ I will ****’ erase you! “ – I aggressively yell at him, while still hitting. It is like fighting a mirror that just don’t want to brake! “ You are fake! Just a pale copy of me! You are not real, you don’t exist! You are just unstable source of energy! I am the one to settle you down! “ – determined to crush my opponent’s will, I continue with the barrage of strikes without wanting to hear anything from this annoyingly softer voice.
“ Listen to me… you close-minded dumb head! “ – storms the “Yang” returning every hit, with much greater force. “ I want to participate in this chuunin exam as well! Why are you depriving me from living?“ – a small teardrop fell on the ground. The softer voice has a softer soul despite his “darker” appearance. He notices that with showing his feelings, I am gaining more confidence and I am becoming even stronger. He swipes his face and changes his look to mimic me: “ You deserve to loose here and when you do, I will absorb your body, and you will become my servant! “ – I am ****'s scared now! Like this is my worst nightmare!
When you experience such a terror you just wake up. The fake one takes the advantage of my moment weakness with strong punch into my face. A-uch! That hurts! I open my eyes instinctively and in front of me - the Raikage. “ What happened? Did I lost? “ – I asked him curiously. What the hell? I can see my own body still meditating! Am I dead? A ghost? Did I lost? This bastard took my body now?!. No, he wouldn't do that!I have to admit that I might need the help of him after all. Probably this soft bastard has a point… Also I am sure that I cannot extend my stay here! I have to go back fast! I am concentrating just like before, meditate and trying to fuse my mind with my body. I don't know how much time I have here!
I appear once again in this inner world and my other half is waiting for him calmly. “ You are back, I am not surprised! Why do you think that this time will end up differently? “ – asks my not so “Dark” half and crosses his arms in front of his hairy chest. His chakra is almost visible at this time, even stronger than before. He's trying to intimidate me, even if his stance is not so masculine as mine.
When I was in this astral world for a minute, I felt respectful to Yang, but now... I won't show him my weakness! Damned me! I am so pathetic with my fragile thoughts! I hate myself, not my other half, I hate myself even more! He is weakling and admits it but now he stand stronger than me! So what am I then? . Once again I charge forward, swinging my heavy fists. The “Yang” nods with his head and tries to counterpunch me. A furious clash, covered by a water splash. When the water fell on the lake, "Yang" is seeing my smashed face. I don't feel more pain, I am fuse with it, I accept it. He looks surprised, confused and even scared a bit. “ Why are you stopping? Are you giving up already? “ – I grinned in response, while my blood is running on his hands. “ You hit like a pussy! “ – I add through my teeth, trying to provoke him. Another tear propels the host, this time he is not wiping it. “ I won’t hit you again! I am part of you, but you are part of me as well! “ – says “Yang” recessive part and then hugs me from nowhere. He then pulls out the ruby gemstone, which was hidden in the falls – the Raikage’s help! I am stunned, do not understand the meaning of this... “ Here you are! You can destroy it now! I don’t want to be the dominant! I just want your permission to be closer to you! “
“ I may even let you take control of my body. But you have to understand that is difficult for me! “ – I sight but then look at my reflection straight into his eyes. It is not a trick only to pass the trial, I am honest with myself. We both extends our hands and performs a strong manly handshake. Two completely different personalities made the first step towards co-operation. “ Us against the world “ – the “Yang” says, I only nod as a sign of approval. “Yang” is getting too excited and tris to give me another hug, but this time this women behavior won't pass! I feel like this guy is going in the wrong direction!. “ C’mon now, pussy, let me break this thing and finish our trial! “ – I mock him, cross my arms and look to the side. Yang did not seem to get angry from my reaction. He is even smiling about something, maybe because I said “our trial”. With a smile on his face he is passing the ruby gemstone. “ See you in your thoughts my friend! “ – he grinс then waves for “goodbye”.
After that “Yin” had cooled off faster than he got mad. He acted just like a kid that got what he wanted. Without loosing any more time he crushed the ruby gemstone with his strong fist.
A small particles started to rip from Yang’s skin, he was breaking apart to million pieces. All of those were attracted to Nissan. They swirled spirally and formed a mirror. “ Is that you or me now? Does it matter? “– Nissan got confused for a second but something pushed him forward so he stepped forward. It was like dimensional portal which broad him back to the “real life”.
Nissan came to the world of the living and felt his own body still sitting in this lotus pose next to the Raikage:
“ Finally! I was that close to disqualify you! “ - said the "right hand" of the Kage, showing Nissan a tiny space between his thumb and index finger.
The bearded genin nodded calmly and stood up. For first time he felt a hundred percent alive.
Everything looked perfectly fine for our man, but a two Kumo proctors appeared only to gave a document to the Raikage. It was a report about Niidashi’s kekkei genkai, which means only one thing – both Yin and Yang have been working together in order to pass this exam. Just to be sure, one of the proctors touched Nissan’s head and got a memory. It was the time when “the dark evil side” gave by their own will the gemstone to the tested student. Sharing that information with the Raikage, resulted a direct disqualification.
***
Now Nissan is sleeping behind the oak tree. This weird inner shit, made him experience once again every single thing from his Third trial. He was all wet from sweat and dried teardrops. His Kirigakure bandana began to catch rust from this aggressive environment.
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WC: 2399
He was sitting behind a big oak tree, which casted a wide shadow. While holding and staring at his bandana, a storm of tears fell onto the metal plate. " Hey moron, the metal will catch rust if you don't stop watering it! " - said his alfa inner voice, while trying to meditate and fix his anger issues.
Now they have switched places after they successfully took the third exam. After the proctors and the Raikage found out about Niidashi’s kekkei genkai, they said “disqualified”!
Yes, the Raikage himself - Hastur Miyamoto – was there to help Nissan. He was a little taller, about the same weight and that’s about it with the similarities. The way he talks, the way he walks, his whole appearance was intimidating and honorable at the same time. His right hand, sitting in his shadow:
“Are you ready, kiddo?” - this old man was nice to the genins, but it looks like it was hard for him. So he have used the same phrases over and over. That time it did not quite worked. That was a grown ass kid, almost as old as the Kage.
“ Yes. “ – answered formally Nissan, but inside he was truly pissed off. This kind of humor was not onto his taste but he doubted that it was humor that Hastur have spoken.
There was a legend spoken by the locals: If you want to find a true balance you have to beat your locked hatred at the falls of truth. There was a story for Naruto Uzumaki the nine tailed jincuuriki and Killer Bee the eight tailed jinchuuriki which both have succeeded here and in a result they took control of their inner beasts. The final trial was not to do the exact same thing, because it was extremely difficult. Just a little demo version of it.
The falls were so cold that around them the temperature was at least two degrees lower. The cold drops were so refreshing, that cooled Nissan’s masculine body, which rested in a lotus pose. Just like the wise elders which meditate in order to find the peace with themselves and gather strength. The second part was more interesting to the bearded man. The possibility to get more powerful was driving him forward all the time.
“ Close you eyes now! “ – insisted the "right hand", while the Raikage himself was performing couple of signs. “A ninja, must come to terms with the truth within themselves “– said the Raikage for first time, then the silence conquered the area.
It was like going into another dimension really. Instead of excited, Nissan had felt scared from the change, so he tried to hide it with his blurry face. He was still filled with doubt. “ Will I become a chuunin after this? I am only one step away! Let’s just finish this exam for inner bullshit and I will be one step closer to greatness! “ - Nissan had thinking only for the results, not for the path that he is destined to walk. The last words he heard from the real world was: “Just find the ruby gemstone and break it! “ – they sounded like faraway echo even back then.
The inner fight appeared so clear to both Nissan, so while they both meditate behind the oak tree, they have experienced it once again. Nobody knew about this drama, because it was only in “Yin” and “Yang” minds.
“FLASHBACK, DREAM or DEJA VU EXPERIENCE "
I open my eyes and look up, while still maintaining the lotus pose. A dark silhouette appears behind the clear waterfall. A dark crimson glowing eyes followed by a pale white face with dense beard. A complete mirror image from the toes to the hair, a perfect creation by analogy of ME? The water is falling so realistically on the copy’s shoulders, the same cold drops as before. Witch the assistance of the wind the cold drops are touching his skin gently, showing me that every sense experience is natural. This is not an ordinary illusion technique, that’s why the locals were telling this stories again and again until it became a legend.
“ I was waiting for you, Yin! “ – said the fake’s voice which sounded a little bit softer than my voice. “ This is why you are made! To wait for me, to serve me!“ – I grinned and gained confidence in front of the recessive. Actually we both have heard each other’s voices before, but it is our first meeting face to face. “ It’s not about you don’t you get it? It won’t be as easy as before! You are on my territory now! “[/color]. – reasons “the fake”. He calls himself “Yang” and he always existed deep inside me. I want to use him, he does not deserve acknowledgement. He is not a real part of me!
***
“ It’s only a kekkei genkai! “ – I used to say, never accepting that “Yang” might be as rightful as me to make decisions and take control of things. Maybe we both deserve equally to be Niidashi? But how to share the control of your own life with someone, especially if he is an opposite.
***
“ If I win now I will gain full control of your power and I will become chuunin! “ – I said with passion. A flame in my eyes started burning, my strong-willed trait was sharp, everybody could see it without a psychology degree.
This was next level of motivation! Everything is lying on a card, all in. “ If I loose I loose myself! “ – I think in my mind, hoping the other bastard don’t have access to it now. I hate to show weakness in front of him.
We both are running towards one another. With the first step a blue glowing chakra appears on our feet, in order to keep us above the water surface. The super natural walking practice, a technique we mastered to perfection in the Academy.
I am making my first attempt for attack with a fast and furious low kick. "My shadow" is reading me as an open book so instead of doing the same he hardens his shin bone with an earth chakra and soaks my kick smoothly, we both take some damage in a result, but it's OK for me! “Burokku to rōkikku“ – is the answer of the soft one. After the block the next step is returning the kick to me. I am smiling, while perform the same block: “You damned copycat! I worked my ass for this technique!“ – obsessed with battle rage, I screamed at my reflection. Instead with anger, the “dark side” answers me calmly, but I can still sense the offense in his tone: “ You? Do you remember my visions of how to master the technique? I was with you all the time pushing whenever you were about to quit… and you just never acknowledge my effort!
One kick after another, I'm doing my best to take him down, but it looks meaningless!. I can feel the damage and the pain, but cannot stop right now! “ I will ****’ erase you! “ – I aggressively yell at him, while still hitting. It is like fighting a mirror that just don’t want to brake! “ You are fake! Just a pale copy of me! You are not real, you don’t exist! You are just unstable source of energy! I am the one to settle you down! “ – determined to crush my opponent’s will, I continue with the barrage of strikes without wanting to hear anything from this annoyingly softer voice.
“ Listen to me… you close-minded dumb head! “ – storms the “Yang” returning every hit, with much greater force. “ I want to participate in this chuunin exam as well! Why are you depriving me from living?“ – a small teardrop fell on the ground. The softer voice has a softer soul despite his “darker” appearance. He notices that with showing his feelings, I am gaining more confidence and I am becoming even stronger. He swipes his face and changes his look to mimic me: “ You deserve to loose here and when you do, I will absorb your body, and you will become my servant! “ – I am ****'s scared now! Like this is my worst nightmare!
When you experience such a terror you just wake up. The fake one takes the advantage of my moment weakness with strong punch into my face. A-uch! That hurts! I open my eyes instinctively and in front of me - the Raikage. “ What happened? Did I lost? “ – I asked him curiously. What the hell? I can see my own body still meditating! Am I dead? A ghost? Did I lost? This bastard took my body now?!. No, he wouldn't do that!I have to admit that I might need the help of him after all. Probably this soft bastard has a point… Also I am sure that I cannot extend my stay here! I have to go back fast! I am concentrating just like before, meditate and trying to fuse my mind with my body. I don't know how much time I have here!
I appear once again in this inner world and my other half is waiting for him calmly. “ You are back, I am not surprised! Why do you think that this time will end up differently? “ – asks my not so “Dark” half and crosses his arms in front of his hairy chest. His chakra is almost visible at this time, even stronger than before. He's trying to intimidate me, even if his stance is not so masculine as mine.
When I was in this astral world for a minute, I felt respectful to Yang, but now... I won't show him my weakness! Damned me! I am so pathetic with my fragile thoughts! I hate myself, not my other half, I hate myself even more! He is weakling and admits it but now he stand stronger than me! So what am I then? . Once again I charge forward, swinging my heavy fists. The “Yang” nods with his head and tries to counterpunch me. A furious clash, covered by a water splash. When the water fell on the lake, "Yang" is seeing my smashed face. I don't feel more pain, I am fuse with it, I accept it. He looks surprised, confused and even scared a bit. “ Why are you stopping? Are you giving up already? “ – I grinned in response, while my blood is running on his hands. “ You hit like a pussy! “ – I add through my teeth, trying to provoke him. Another tear propels the host, this time he is not wiping it. “ I won’t hit you again! I am part of you, but you are part of me as well! “ – says “Yang” recessive part and then hugs me from nowhere. He then pulls out the ruby gemstone, which was hidden in the falls – the Raikage’s help! I am stunned, do not understand the meaning of this... “ Here you are! You can destroy it now! I don’t want to be the dominant! I just want your permission to be closer to you! “
“ I may even let you take control of my body. But you have to understand that is difficult for me! “ – I sight but then look at my reflection straight into his eyes. It is not a trick only to pass the trial, I am honest with myself. We both extends our hands and performs a strong manly handshake. Two completely different personalities made the first step towards co-operation. “ Us against the world “ – the “Yang” says, I only nod as a sign of approval. “Yang” is getting too excited and tris to give me another hug, but this time this women behavior won't pass! I feel like this guy is going in the wrong direction!. “ C’mon now, pussy, let me break this thing and finish our trial! “ – I mock him, cross my arms and look to the side. Yang did not seem to get angry from my reaction. He is even smiling about something, maybe because I said “our trial”. With a smile on his face he is passing the ruby gemstone. “ See you in your thoughts my friend! “ – he grinс then waves for “goodbye”.
“FLASHBACK, DREAM or DEJA VU EXPERIENCE ENDING "
After that “Yin” had cooled off faster than he got mad. He acted just like a kid that got what he wanted. Without loosing any more time he crushed the ruby gemstone with his strong fist.
A small particles started to rip from Yang’s skin, he was breaking apart to million pieces. All of those were attracted to Nissan. They swirled spirally and formed a mirror. “ Is that you or me now? Does it matter? “– Nissan got confused for a second but something pushed him forward so he stepped forward. It was like dimensional portal which broad him back to the “real life”.
Nissan came to the world of the living and felt his own body still sitting in this lotus pose next to the Raikage:
“ Finally! I was that close to disqualify you! “ - said the "right hand" of the Kage, showing Nissan a tiny space between his thumb and index finger.
The bearded genin nodded calmly and stood up. For first time he felt a hundred percent alive.
Everything looked perfectly fine for our man, but a two Kumo proctors appeared only to gave a document to the Raikage. It was a report about Niidashi’s kekkei genkai, which means only one thing – both Yin and Yang have been working together in order to pass this exam. Just to be sure, one of the proctors touched Nissan’s head and got a memory. It was the time when “the dark evil side” gave by their own will the gemstone to the tested student. Sharing that information with the Raikage, resulted a direct disqualification.
***
Now Nissan is sleeping behind the oak tree. This weird inner shit, made him experience once again every single thing from his Third trial. He was all wet from sweat and dried teardrops. His Kirigakure bandana began to catch rust from this aggressive environment.
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WC: 2399