1 Life? Or death? [Shuuya | No Kill] Wed Feb 24, 2016 11:04 am
Kidou
D-rank
Kidou sat alone in Training Ground 71. Like many other training grounds in the Village Hidden in the Leaves, it was dominated by a large, clear grassy field, with trees at the edges and the sounds of a river flowing through the training grounds originating somewhere fromt he cardinal north. His face was fixated on several birds that were chirping and flying around, landing in their nests on the trees and either building it up or feeding their young with crushed worms.
He loved how nature worked. It seemed so… natural. He chuckled at that thought. Well, of course it was natural. Hence, it was in the name. He admired how this one scene seemed to personify what he liked, and what he hated as well: life. Or, rather, he loved life, and hated the loss of it. It wasn’t even death that left a bad taste in his mouth, just the loss of life. There were many ways that life could be lost, and not all of them required for it to be done in the traditional way of actually dying or being killed.
No, loss of life could take place in the form of losing one’s identity. After all, if one lost their identity, they didn’t really have a reason to live. They didn’t have anyone to live as. Subjugation of another person’s will was also a form of loss of life, since you were killing someone off and having them act on your behalf with no say on theirs. This last thought brought an interesting notion to Kidou. As ninja, they were expected to be extensions of their villages will, tools to be used by the Kage to further the cause of the village to ensure their future survival, and then their future prosperity. By this notion, he should hate villages, yet the irony in that was he actually held a deep love not just for the village of Konoha, but for the concept of villages as a whole. He would never want to see them gone. With no villages, there would be far too much chaos, and loss of life would become too widespread and chaotic, uncontrollable.
He supposed that was the way life worked. Just like the birds in front of him, lives had to be exchanged. It was… nature, he supposed. Lives were lost, and lives were gained. Like with the birds, worms were killed for their young to be fed. Like with humans, animals were their prey for sustenance. Loss of lives, gain of lives… But maybe that was one that was uncontrollable? Was that any different than how ninja killed each other to ensure their own survival, and the survival of those they cared about?
Kidou was left to ponder these thoughts, ultimately still revolving around his love for life, as he stared at the birds and their happy family, so unlike his own.
His own family was already broken, though he supposed he was the one responsible for that. He left his family to preserve the status quo that he knew so much about. His parents had always loved his brother more and showered him with greater attention than they did Kidou, and he was fine with that, since it allowed him to do whatever he wanted whenever he wanted. The loss of this freedom when he became a ninja, due to their shared worry that he would fall in the line of duty, had tipped the scales of their family too much for his comfort, and seeing his brother without said attention, even if the latter had said it was fine, had spurred him into leaving.
Well, he got his wish, he supposed.
618/618
He loved how nature worked. It seemed so… natural. He chuckled at that thought. Well, of course it was natural. Hence, it was in the name. He admired how this one scene seemed to personify what he liked, and what he hated as well: life. Or, rather, he loved life, and hated the loss of it. It wasn’t even death that left a bad taste in his mouth, just the loss of life. There were many ways that life could be lost, and not all of them required for it to be done in the traditional way of actually dying or being killed.
No, loss of life could take place in the form of losing one’s identity. After all, if one lost their identity, they didn’t really have a reason to live. They didn’t have anyone to live as. Subjugation of another person’s will was also a form of loss of life, since you were killing someone off and having them act on your behalf with no say on theirs. This last thought brought an interesting notion to Kidou. As ninja, they were expected to be extensions of their villages will, tools to be used by the Kage to further the cause of the village to ensure their future survival, and then their future prosperity. By this notion, he should hate villages, yet the irony in that was he actually held a deep love not just for the village of Konoha, but for the concept of villages as a whole. He would never want to see them gone. With no villages, there would be far too much chaos, and loss of life would become too widespread and chaotic, uncontrollable.
He supposed that was the way life worked. Just like the birds in front of him, lives had to be exchanged. It was… nature, he supposed. Lives were lost, and lives were gained. Like with the birds, worms were killed for their young to be fed. Like with humans, animals were their prey for sustenance. Loss of lives, gain of lives… But maybe that was one that was uncontrollable? Was that any different than how ninja killed each other to ensure their own survival, and the survival of those they cared about?
Kidou was left to ponder these thoughts, ultimately still revolving around his love for life, as he stared at the birds and their happy family, so unlike his own.
His own family was already broken, though he supposed he was the one responsible for that. He left his family to preserve the status quo that he knew so much about. His parents had always loved his brother more and showered him with greater attention than they did Kidou, and he was fine with that, since it allowed him to do whatever he wanted whenever he wanted. The loss of this freedom when he became a ninja, due to their shared worry that he would fall in the line of duty, had tipped the scales of their family too much for his comfort, and seeing his brother without said attention, even if the latter had said it was fine, had spurred him into leaving.
Well, he got his wish, he supposed.
618/618
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