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Night In The Woods (N'Jobu|Invite) Sat Sep 01, 2018 10:50 pm
Ashiko
D-rank
Warm. It's not cold, it's not hot, it's just warm. A little humid, even. Deciding not to bring a jacket was a pretty good idea; otherwise she'd be uncomfortable and restless until she took it off. Then she'd have to carry it back, making it more unnecessary than anything. Ashiko laid onto her back, crossing over her legs as she looked up at the night sky. So dark, scattered in millions of stars, and forever watching. Honestly, there were so many words anyone could use to describe it's complicated, infinite patterns. The word 'beautiful', was the best she could think of from the top of her head. Even then, it almost didn't feel like it was enough. She couldn't even figure out why, either. Beautiful was the word her father used to describe her mother, it was a word that suggested so much and was a compliment meant to be taken to the depths of a person's being. It was almost like the word, 'amazing' or 'awesome'; they always had some higher meaning. Yet they were so overused in life and it didn't feel like it'd equate to her feelings involving the stars. She smiled slightly, exhaling slowly.
Sure, any one who had eyes and a view of it could see it any night, but for her, it was always like. . .seeing life in a new way. There were no obstacles, no pain, no responsibility. All anybody ever had to do was look. Look and feel it. It might've been weird to other people, but when everyone's different, it makes sense. She let her arms rest on her chest, drawing a deep breath before she eased her eyes closed. Yeah, it was hard to think about putting particularly complex ideas into words, but being alone to think about it always seemed to make it easier. If only by a little bit.
All the crickets made it that way.
She loved animals, she really did. But sometimes she couldn't help but feel frustrated when they irritated her. Yet with her in their domain, Ashiko didn't feel like she held the rights to being that way. She could just move. Still, moving suddenly didn't feel plausible. Her limbs were heavy, her breathing melted into longer pauses. And the crickets faded away into the background. A nap. . .probably wouldn't hurt.
Then she'd probably would have to run back home before her parents got too concerned. Yeah. That sounded like a plan. She drew a long breath, but her mind didn't blank out of a new mentality. Time had gone by so fast. Now she was a genin, and she was fifteen. It's not exactly far off from when he parents had her, and in a few more years after that, she'd already be living on her own. Would they even be alive after that? They were still people in action, and they'd have missions; missions bigger than what she could handle. Her smile faded off.
She wanted to protect people, and be as great as her parents. If not, then greater. But how? Sure, training was part of it, but how long would it take for her to actually be better? Years, most likely. But how many? Ashiko wasn't afraid of the work, she wasn't afraid of the journey. In some shape and form, she was scared of failure. Horrible, discouraging failure. She'd get back up again, and again, sure. But what if she only continued to fail? What if she continued to disappoint them? What if they suddenly decided that their daughter wasn't all that she was meant to be? Age came with responsibility. . .with expectations. Was she even ready to meet them? She believed in herself, even if it was only a small amount. Maybe she'd at least be average? But then what would she do after that? . .Maybe. . .she could become a teacher? Like at the academy! She'd love to teach people! . .but there was so much more responsibility with that.
Life can change so fast. . .so much. But. . .she'd keep up with it. . .somehow. If she kept herself on track, she'd make her goal! She'd make her parents proud. She'd make herself proud. Yet for now, all she had to do was relax and fall asleep. Careers could wait for just a while longer. Rushing into something new wouldn't get her anywhere except for drowning in stress. Then again, she could probably handle a bit of stress. Once she ran into a pattern, of course. Family, training, friends, and missions were all scattered around in that pattern so far, so that had to be played around with until it was decent enough. Then she could build it up until it was better and flexible so it complimented her upcoming goals and ranks. . .but there was a lingering thought that was still playing on her mind.
She still couldn't believe she was a genin.
It was just such a new concept. And a foreign one. An exciting one.
862/862
OOC: I think 862 words upon return is pretty good. :D
Sure, any one who had eyes and a view of it could see it any night, but for her, it was always like. . .seeing life in a new way. There were no obstacles, no pain, no responsibility. All anybody ever had to do was look. Look and feel it. It might've been weird to other people, but when everyone's different, it makes sense. She let her arms rest on her chest, drawing a deep breath before she eased her eyes closed. Yeah, it was hard to think about putting particularly complex ideas into words, but being alone to think about it always seemed to make it easier. If only by a little bit.
All the crickets made it that way.
She loved animals, she really did. But sometimes she couldn't help but feel frustrated when they irritated her. Yet with her in their domain, Ashiko didn't feel like she held the rights to being that way. She could just move. Still, moving suddenly didn't feel plausible. Her limbs were heavy, her breathing melted into longer pauses. And the crickets faded away into the background. A nap. . .probably wouldn't hurt.
Then she'd probably would have to run back home before her parents got too concerned. Yeah. That sounded like a plan. She drew a long breath, but her mind didn't blank out of a new mentality. Time had gone by so fast. Now she was a genin, and she was fifteen. It's not exactly far off from when he parents had her, and in a few more years after that, she'd already be living on her own. Would they even be alive after that? They were still people in action, and they'd have missions; missions bigger than what she could handle. Her smile faded off.
She wanted to protect people, and be as great as her parents. If not, then greater. But how? Sure, training was part of it, but how long would it take for her to actually be better? Years, most likely. But how many? Ashiko wasn't afraid of the work, she wasn't afraid of the journey. In some shape and form, she was scared of failure. Horrible, discouraging failure. She'd get back up again, and again, sure. But what if she only continued to fail? What if she continued to disappoint them? What if they suddenly decided that their daughter wasn't all that she was meant to be? Age came with responsibility. . .with expectations. Was she even ready to meet them? She believed in herself, even if it was only a small amount. Maybe she'd at least be average? But then what would she do after that? . .Maybe. . .she could become a teacher? Like at the academy! She'd love to teach people! . .but there was so much more responsibility with that.
Life can change so fast. . .so much. But. . .she'd keep up with it. . .somehow. If she kept herself on track, she'd make her goal! She'd make her parents proud. She'd make herself proud. Yet for now, all she had to do was relax and fall asleep. Careers could wait for just a while longer. Rushing into something new wouldn't get her anywhere except for drowning in stress. Then again, she could probably handle a bit of stress. Once she ran into a pattern, of course. Family, training, friends, and missions were all scattered around in that pattern so far, so that had to be played around with until it was decent enough. Then she could build it up until it was better and flexible so it complimented her upcoming goals and ranks. . .but there was a lingering thought that was still playing on her mind.
She still couldn't believe she was a genin.
It was just such a new concept. And a foreign one. An exciting one.
862/862
OOC: I think 862 words upon return is pretty good. :D
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