1 Trying to Pass the Time [Kannon, or Invite][No-Kill] Fri Jan 05, 2018 11:39 pm
Gemma
D-rank
...How different would my life have been had my father known about me...
Another sleepless night had occurred for the young Guanyin, questions about her past and a bunch of what if’s clouding her mind and keeping sleep just out of reach for her grasping hands. It wasn’t the first time she would have to spend the day running on the fumes of little sleep and it likely wouldn’t be the last either. What she needed was some answers – she was curious about the man she called her father and while her great grandparents had been more than willing to touch on the subject anytime she asked as well as answer all of her questions she had without fail she still felt like it wasn’t enough. She needed him, the real deal, in the flesh. For now though she was just going to have to settle for the fact that her great grandparents had sent for him – and apparently his wife – and that they would hopefully be gracing Kumogakure no Sato with their presence soon enough. In the meantime she would just have to deal with not only her own excitement and impatience but also the knot in her gut that was filled with all kinds of childish worry and thoughts such as ‘Will he even want me?’ and ‘Will he be proud of what I accomplished or have I not tried hard enough?’ among so many others. Of course, Grandma and Grandad had both assured he he would love her the moment he knew about her, and that he would be more than proud of all she had done, but the thoughts were just there and there was little to nothing she could do about it.
...I need to find something to distract myself with...
Yes, that seemed like quite the good idea right now – what she needed was to find something else to occupy her mind and her time with. She had tried both drawing as evident by her mostly filled sketchbook as well as studying evident by the giant pile of books that were currently taking up ninety percent of the surface top of her desk, but neither of those had helped much at all. ”Speaking of sketchbooks, I need to pick up some new ones. I’m down to just a few pages now and that won’t last me long.”, the thought caused her to move into action as the idea of spending a few hours shopping since she had recently been paid from a few D-rank missions she had run crossed her mind and sounded like just what she needed to get her mind off of things, tossing the blankets off of herself and standing up to stretch. She fixed her bed afterward, though there wasn’t much to fix since she had pretty much laid in the same position all night long. She headed into the shower, glad once more to have her own bathroom so that she could litter the counter space with her various products for her hair and the make up she never bothered using but had just the same because it was the ‘girly’ thing to do. She undressed quickly, tossing her clothing in the hamper, and took the hottest shower she could manage, cleaning herself up and washing away the nights sleep failure – all while hoping it would help wake her up some. Once finished she dried off and pulled articles of clothing from her dresser: a red tank top, a black short sleeve over-shirt with a baggy enough neck area so that it would hang off of one shoulder, black leggings to be worn beneath a red pleated skirt, dark red socks, and appropriate undergarments. She dressed quietly but quickly, slipping her black combat boots on last and her weapons pouch around her right leg. Her Kumogakure hitai-ate was added then, left to drape loosely around her neck – something she was proud to always wear as it marked at least one achievement she had made in her short lifetime.
Satisfied with her appearance she picked up her canvas bag and slung it over her shoulder, the bag filled with her ‘travel’ assortment of art supplies – a weeded down version of just the basics that she needed if she decided to draw while out and about. She picked up her earbuds and ipod, slipping the earbuds into her ear and the ipod into one of her pockets of her red pleated skirt after pressing play, glad her earbuds had such a long cord as it worked out comfortably enough. She headed out of her bedroom to find both of her great grandparents in the living room. “You might want to grab a coat, dear, if you’re heading out. It’s a bit chilly.”, spoke Grandma as she looked up from the book she was reading, Gemma having popped an earbud out of her ears when she saw her grandmother getting ready to speak. Gemma nodded and smiled, ducking back into her room long enough to add a black leather jacket to her ensemble before heading back out. She kissed both of her great grandparents on the cheek before heading to the door, ”I’m going to grab some new sketchbooks, do either of you need anything while I’m out?”, she questioned with a pause, watching as both of her grandparents responded with a shake of their heads. “Just be safe out there.”, her grandfather called out to which Gemma called back a ”I will, promise” before heading outside and closing the door behind herself.
...Music can calm the savage beast, or in my case the nervous daughter...
She replaced the earbud back into her ear and cranked the volume, switching to a new song Icon for Hire – Cynics and Critics that she began to sing as she made her way to the market and down the semi-busy streets. ”We're not cynics, we just don't believe a word you say. We're not critics, we just hate it all anyway. If you're happy and you know it clap your hands like this. Cause the rest of us are wondering what on earth we missed. If you're happy and you know it stomp your feet real loud. The rest of us could use some cheering up right now. Oh please, shoot us up with something shiny and quick. We like our thrills dirt cheap and our irony thick. Oh whatever, never mind, we're just crying for help. I guess we'll heal the old fashioned way and do it ourselves. Oh this is all we know. Oh tragic and miserable. We're not cynics, we just don't believe a word you say. We're not critics, we just hate it all anyway. Oh this is all we've got. Oh we do what we've been taught. We're not cynics, we just don't believe a word you say. We're not critics, we just hate it all anyway. Sometimes I think we push your buttons just for fun. As Gemma continued to make her way down the market she found herself swaying from side to side, busting a move, and moon-walking to the left and then to the right, all the while showing the grace that came with practice: moving with the kind of fluidity that was worthy of a moving work of art.
"Sometimes I think our kind of crazy has already been done. We're a copy of a copy, everything we swore we'd not be. Yeah, the truth hurts, but it hasn't strung enough to stop me. Oh please, can't you give us something better than this. We've built up a tolerance to all your veteran tricks. You're busy smiling on cue, when you don't have a clue. We're a mess and we know it, we want you to know too. Oh this is all we know. Oh tragic and miserable. We're not cynics, we just don't believe a word you say. We're not critics, we just hate it all anyway. Oh this is all we've got. Oh we do what we've been taught. We're not cynics, we just don't believe a word you say. We're not critics, we just hate it all anyway. If you're happy and you know it then there might be something wrong with you. What's the point in holding on when all of us don't want you to. It'd make us feel better, knowing you'd be stuck forever. Sick minds stick together, we can stay sick forever. Oh this is all we know. Oh tragic and miserable, We're not cynics, we just don't believe a word you say. We're not critics, we just hate it all anyway...", her sweet voice continued to sing the song till the end, humming along with the ending chorus as it began to repeat itself over and over again, in that blissful mental state that for the moment kept her from caring about what the onlookers thought of her and her current actions. They mattered little to her when she was in this kind of mindset after all – there was only one living and breathing thing she knew of that could taint her day and that woman was as far from her mind as possible. In fact, enjoying the song so much she reached into her bag as he ended, pressing the back button and causing it to play again as she continued to make her way down the street, heading towards her favor store that sold the art supplies she was looking for.
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