Day 2
A storm had occurred the previous night. Thunder booming every few seconds followed by the lightning that lit up the sky. Everything was soaked once daylight came. The ground below was a muddy mess, with the occasional sprout or leaf sinking into the dark muck. The trees stood widely unaffected, but one of the larger ones had toppled and was now lost in the mud as well. That tree was further to the east of the forest, though, so the moths were all OK. Jun remained with Daraku at all times, since she loved his company as he did hers.
And now, it's quiet and I have my focus. Daraku had been meditating all night, with no real need for sleep. No longer atop the tree, but rather inside of it on top of his blankets, he let the silence fill him like a slow torrent fills a tide pool. He had maintained Sage Mode all night, since meditating allowed him to keep up his chakra by taking in natural energy. It was tiring in battle merely because the user had to exert themselves a lot in order to use its augmentation capabilities and jutsu, but when it was peaceful and the user was just connecting with nature, it was more of a therapeutic thing than anything. The small changes the form granted him were actually a sign of his imperfection and his inability to have complete control of the technique; they were a minor, temporary version of the change those who fail in senjutsu end up undergoing as they turn into the species they learned from. He'd learned that the greatest sages of the past maintained their own physical appearance during Sage Mode, aside from changes in eye color and chakra levels. He knew that he didn't have that capacity; Sage Mode itself was his limit, and taking Senjutsu any farther was prevented by his personality itself. He lacked the self-control and composure to have perfect synchronization with nature. It was alright, though; the fact that he had attained Sage Mode at all was amazing to him and he was happy to the have the skill. His eyes closed and one hand raised, he felt his facial features with his index and middle finger. First, his face; the texture of his skin was slightly different, just enough for him to be able to tell. He brushed his fingers over his eyelids, able to feel the shape of his compoundeyes underneath. Adjusting to vision was strange, when he first learned Sage Mode, since it was like seeing the same thing from every angle and perspective at once. But after he'd gotten used to it, it was actually kind of cool. It let him react to things much more quickly than he was able to before. Finally, his hand reached the thin antenna on the right side of his head, and it twitched in response. He didn't have conscious control of his antennae; they moved on their own, but his mind received signals from them instantaneously whenever they sensed a change in the environment and it furthered his reaction time even more. His reflexes were inhumanly quick in this form.
The sage let his arm fall to his lap again, and he rested his hands in the center of his crossed legs.
My imperfection actually gives me an advantage...I like the thought of that. Daraku thought as he burrowed deeper into his mind. While he was taking in natural energy, his schizophrenia went into dormancy, but he needed to invoke it so that he could confront the problem and deal with it at its source. In his head, he saw things as an open space covered in sand, same as it was in Suna, only in his thoughts, there were no buildings or people, just open desert for as far as anyone could see. It wasn't windy or anything, either; no sandstorm, no breeze. Just sand. He stood in the center of the desert, his vision of himself carrying an unrecognizable sword and wearing only a golden silk wrap around his waist. This was his avatar, an embodiment of who he thought he was in that moment. His real self was lost in this thought, in meditation so deep it was nearly a slumber. The avatar started to walk straight ahead through the endless expanse of sand, and suddenly mirages began to appear around him. Pain, murder, war, genocide, destruction. He recognized some of the faces, but he couldn't identify any of them by name. What bothered him was that the sword being used in all of these mirages was the same one he held in his hand, and he couldn't help but feel he was causing all of this. Voices came next, the ones that usually plagued him during one of his episodes. His father's, his childhood friends, his victims.
What is it you're looking for here, Daraku? Tsurugi's voice echoed through the white desert.
Whatever is causing all of this. Daraku thought; his avatar's mouth moved with the words as it continued through the sands. The mirages stopped at once, and the sun was sinking over the horizon at blazing fast speed now. The skies changed color from blue to violent orange to blood red. He stopped moving...he was sinking into the sand for some reason and he couldn't move at all. Tsurugi was towering over him and a sandstorm picked up. Daraku didn't react at all. He remained calm and let the sand drag him down and then everything was dark and he felt a great pressure crushing him. All he did was close his eyes, and within seconds his kekkei genkai activated and he phased through the sand until he was back on the surface. Tsurugi was there still.
Where is he?I'm right here. His voice distorted, now deep and monstrous like it had been when Daraku was hallucinating in Kumogakure. Daraku shook his head, still lacking any substantial emotion or change in mental state. His concentration was too strong to be broken. When his avatar next spoke, it spoke in a much louder, booming voice that filled the desert with sound.
Where is he? he insisted, and Tsurugi faded as the sun disappeared, leaving everything pitch black. Daraku lifted a hand and released a brilliant golden light in the sun's place. Now the figure in front of him was different; the same height as him, but nothing more than a living shadow. Whatever it was, it was using his kekkei genkai.
...Daraku. he said to himself. This thing in front of him was his other half; it had the same chakra signature and appearance as him, but it didn't release the Lurking Darkness technique. It maintained it while it spoke.
So you figured it out then, it replied to him, now with his own voice.
It was the last possible conclusion I could make. I originally thought that since the hallucinations started coming after I killed Tsurugi, it was because of him. But it was never him that was the problem, but the act of murder itself. Assassination, the task I was forced to do throughout my teenage years...what I was trained for. It wasn't the death of my father that drove me mad. It was the loss of my innocence, the corruption that consumed me and made me a ruthless killer that drove me mad. And here you are, right in front of me. I'm my own worst enemy."♦
♫ Akihiro's Will ♫Daraku didn't know there was a library in his home. At the young age of 14, he had been told that the southwestern corner of the Ishido Castle was closed permanently due to damages. He didn't remember that as a young boy, that was where the library was, and that was where his mother had spent time teaching him how to read. Once he returned to Sunagakure and reunited the Ishido clan, he found out for himself that his father had placed a seal on the entrance to the library and forbidden anyone from going inside. So, when the seal was undone and the library was open, Daraku found countless texts and scrolls detailing the history of the Ishido. One specific scroll was written by the son of Akihiro Ishido, the clan's founder and former patriarch. It was about the clan's foundation...Daraku read through the entire thing in one night.
Akihiro Ishido and his family were distant descendants from the Iburi of Hi no Kuni. The Iburi were a clan widely known for their ability to turn into smoke at will and thus become intangible at the cost of risking permanent death if the smoke was dissipated somehow. Ultimately, they were all killed by a man named Orochimaru as he tried to take their ability as his own. Akihiro was the first to discover that he was born with a more refined version of this skill; he was able to become intangible, just as the Iburi were, but his shape manipulation was advanced enough so that he was able to keep his own physical form and appearance and thus be immune to the risk of dissipation. He kept this a secret throughout a majority of his life for fear that he would be persecuted for it. As soon as his children began to manifest the same skill that he had, he realized now that he had a kekkei genkai of his own, and accepted it as a gift from the gods. Akihiro followed the teachings of Kami no Michi (神の道 ~ lit. "way of the divine"), and over time realized that he wanted to become a god just like those that he worshipped.
With enough time, Akihiro managed to persuade his family and a number of his friends to follow the same teachings and also strive to become gods in order to transcend mortality. They trained as shinobi to gain immense power and secluded themselves from the rest of the world in a desert. Akihiro admired the wind god as his favorite deity, and late in his life, he became one of the strongest wind release users in any of the five great nations in an effort to become the next incarnation of Fūjin. This built a reputation for him. Sunagakure no Sato was founded, he purposely returned to society and became good friends with the honorable Kazekage so that he could gain a foothold in the village as a powerful clan. He and his family erected a castle and he spent his last years there, now unable to continue as a shinobi and realizing that even with all of his power, death was inevitable. And that was how the clan's founding story ended, with Akihiro's death and the clan ever present in Sunagakure.
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Reference: The Great MassacreOver a century later, Tsurugi turned death into a tool. Akihiro had much brighter intentions and an optimistic world view, and he wanted to be immortal. Tsurugi, Akihiro's great grandson, saw the pain and sadness in the world and figured that the best way to counteract its effects was through force and power. After Akihiro's granddaughter, Fuiyoka, had left him to go to Hi no Kuni to reform the clan, he and those that remained with him in Sunagakure became thieves and assassins to gain power and wealth. This tarnished the Ishido's reputation and made them widely hated by many. Daraku was Tsurugi's son and thus was raised as an assassin. He adopted Tsurugi's world view and killed mercilessly and happily. Within a few years, Tsurugi's wife decided to leave to Konoha as well and tried to take Daraku and a number of other clansmen with her, but without hesitation he killed her and all the rest of them to shut down their escape plan. This became known to the remaining Ishido as the Great Massacre, but no one dared speak about that day to Tsurugi. Tsurugi shut himself off from the rest of his family and ruled over the clan with an iron fist. But where did that leave Daraku? Without a mother, surrounded by the death that his forefathers feared so badly, and morally impure...he didn't understand it at the time, but that path that he was going down would break him one day.
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Daraku stood, facing his dark reflection with sad eyes. The sands were still settled, peaceful, and it was bright again since he had returned the sunlight with his power. Here, in this world of his mind, he was divine. He was the deity that Akihiro strived to be; in reality, that was impossible...but imagination broke every boundary and let him grow into his full potential. He wasn't afraid or unsure. His mind had a newfound clarity and this madness was disconnected from him, now an entirely separate entity that was once a part of him. His antennae raised and lowered while he held a steady gaze at the shadow version of himself.
I wish I had understood it from the beginning...I wish I could have saved my mother. I wish I could have convinced my father to follow Akihiro's teachings like my grandmother and we could have gone to Konoha and been a family again. What I wish for most, though, is that innocent childhood I never had. But it's too late now. The only thing I can do now is save myself and my clan. The two stood, one on the side of light and the other engulfed in darkness. And even though this was all happening in his mind as he meditated, he understood that only one of them would make it out of there.
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